HOPE

As I sit here and watch Giuliana and Bill I cry as they hear the news that they are expecting. I have struggled with fertility and have watched their show from day 1... I have seen their struggles with IVF and then she discovered she had breast cancer. She beat the cancer and they had to go through surrogacy and it worked :) Ryan and I have talked about this and will cross that rode if needed in the future! I am just beyond excited for them and we have HOPE :)

I can't wait to hear the good news again that we are pregnant... That was the best feeling in the world..  I think about the whole process and get excited and nervous at the same time... My IVF nurse (who I drive crazy) emailed me today with a new protocol. I will now have my retrieval date on June 5 and then the transfer 3 to 5 days later.. I am excited it is going to happen earlier than expected and nervous too. I cannot express how much I want a family. I think I will be a nervous wreck until we find out if it worked or not. I know that being so open with the process I am going to tell everyone on my blog and know that will be a joyous or very hard time. But it will all work out in God's timing and we have the love and support of our friends and family.

 We definitely had an obstacle thrown our way this week. My husband's truck messed up and now we have to fix something on it. I am telling you, when it rains it POURS. I am trying not to stress about it because I know all things will work out.

I will tell you this! This baby is going to be CELEBRATED!!!! I will never want to let it go and I will be FAT and sick all of the time. It will all be worth it!!

Today's picture is from a cruise we went on with both set of parents during Thanksgiving. My husband is very artistic and talented. On this particular day, I was just staring off and thinking about everything. My mind wonders and sometimes I can be really quiet(shocking) and just can't help but think about everything going on. I remember this day clearly because that morning we found out our procedure that we did to get pregnant did not work. I thought to myself I am not going to give up and we will move on to the next step!!