Here we come IVF

Well I know it has been awhile since I have wrote.. Life has been really busy for me. I am working 40 plus hours a week, getting my Master's degree, and was working on losing weight and getting fit. Well I am finished with my Master's degree in 3 weeks :) It has been a long time coming but I am very excited about this. Then, I have lost a total of 15 pounds and 30 inches in 2 months or so. I plan to lose 10 more before the end of school fingers crossed :) Now lets get to IVF.

Well we went to the doctor in March. Ryan's mom went with us. We wanted to talk to the doctor about other options because we want to do what is best. Well, she told us right off the bat that IVF would be best for us because of how long we have been trying... Well I knew in the back of my head she was going to say that but to actually hear that was different. She talked to us about it and then a financial person came in and showed the numbers. I immediately started crying and thinking oh my goodness this much of a price and it is not even a guarantee. Well honestly I am not going to talk about money in this blog because it really stresses me out to no end. So we are doing IVF in June. Am I excited? YES and no.... Our doctor believes we have a really good chance of this working out and that makes me hopeful. Also, it will be in God's timing when we do have a baby... I am nervous about it not working and all what is involved. It is a lot on my body and hormones(poor Ryan). Well our retrieval date is around June 13 and the transfer will be 3 to 5 days later. So we should know by the end of June if we are going to have a little one again. We are hoping and praying that it works out for us. I will tell you that we will only do IVF twice and then maybe go to other options.
I am very fortunate for the people I have in my life who support me through this process. My husband is amazing and just lets me cry. My co workers at work just sit and listen and let me cry in the hallway. I try to remain strong but this is honestly one of the hardest things I have been through in my life..... I will be on this more and more updating on meds, dates, feelings, etc. I believe one day that someone else will needs someone to talk to through this journey and I know from experience it is nice to talk to someone going through the same journey.
Today I am putting a picture of my sweet puppy Scarlet. She is the best puppy and is my child right now! We love her unconditionally!